hypersomnia

i think I'm suffering hypersomnia ,a type of sleep disorder that makes me sleep a lot and very difficult to wake in the morning. The difference between hypersomnia and insomnia is that, hypersomnia refers to either excessive sleepiness during the day or extended, overly long periods of nighttime sleep.as a 'hyperactivist', it's hard for me to get myself to sleep, at times it will takes me few hours on the bed before i can fall asleep completely. this has made me very very frustrated. i'm not able to fell asleep through out the whole night and by the time i managed to sleep; i would not wake up on time in the morning.most people wouldnt understand that - why is it so hard for me to get up from the bed, believe me, my body does not intentionally refuse to wake up, i just can't make myself off the bed.i had tried many tricks in order to wake up on time.such as 4 alarm clocks around me and even pre-set my cdplayer in order to turn on itself at certain time with real loud volume. it didnt work on me.i could just enjoy my sweet dreams and carry on sleeping. in addition to that, what's more amazing is that, when someone talk to me while i'm asleep, i can even answer their question or talk to them. and worst, if someone try touching/moving me in order to wake me up, i would just laid my fist on his face without myself realizing it.i think i should consult a doctor as soon.

My love for you

I know we don't get to talk or see each other much. But being apart for now doesn't change the way I feel about you in my heart. Sure I'm lonely, and sometimes I'm overwhelmed with this emptiness in my chest. But, just remember that I love you and everything about you. That's what gets me through every minute of every day that I'm without you.

Sweetheart, you don't know what I would give to kiss your lips, feel your touch, or even just to see you. I long to hold you and feel your sweet caress. I have never loved anyone as much as I love you.You make me feel loved, you make me feel safe, but more importantly, you make me feel wanted. We both knew our friendship would grow right from the very first day we spoke. But, neither one of us could begin to imagine the love we both feel, not exploding or thundering into our hearts, but just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship that only you and I can understand.

You are my soul mate, my best friend, my inspiration, and my love.I don't care if you forget our first kiss, our first date, just as long as you remember that I love you with every aching bone in my body no matter what. Having your love has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't care what others say about you and me. All I know is that I love you, and that will never change.

Love always,

DANIEL

Patience plus limits

For now, im starting to believe that hope and miracle do exist.

But, they just wanna test ur patience and limits;t

hey just wanna ruin every hope of urs until u decided to give up.

So that u'll be extra happy and in the doubt of the miracles tat happened to u,

and of coz try to slap urself in the morning to make sure it aint a dream.

I've long waited for this... very long time ago.



Here you are.

But, im not gonna retrieve or take back wadever i told u peepscuz

im gonna play it low... very loww.

I just cant afford to lose it again.

I promise i will treasure every inch of it. =)

LOVE

1) Love heals.

2) Love prospers.

3) Love protects.

4) Love guards.

5) Love guides.

6) Love restores.

7) Love creates.

8) Love makes all things new.

9) Love straightens out every crooked place in life.


When Love is the answer, there is no question. All You Need is Love. It is just that simple

I am lucky to have you in my life!!

I just want to lets ppl out there know who males me feel special....(KELLY)!! I am lucky to have you in my life!~

A beautiful, heartfelt message for someone special in our life.

Missing u....(KELLY)

All my days, n all my nights,
are lonely without u my heart.
only thou art can come and soothe,
this always so throbbing and cribbing article..

darkness doesn seem to subside,
if only u could be by my side.
wat falacies and betrayals, look in my eyes,
my love for u will shove them aside.

itz too long a wait,
my eyes are too tired now,
only if u could give them rest,
come and kiss away the pain.

this restless soul, looks for u,
hither, then thither.oh!
do not punish me so.
look a poet u have created besides.

countless places have i wandered,
friends n foe, all seem alike.
the world doth seek vengenance,
n i simply look, standing aside.

the feel is blue, though not new,
whence did i care for someone so.
let our song recieve its reward, this solitary soul,
at thy mercy.

scorned i have been, dejected more so.
yet hope doth give me false solace.
our love rises over the complications that shows,
upon this earth, as it revolutes.

must i know wat comes that shows us as aparts,
the solution lies in this heart, herein.
countless more pleading wilt i do,
thyself is all that i have ever to ask.

the birds are not singing,
they hide in their nests.
the flowers have stooped blooming,
the fragrance all lost.

nature doth pleads u,
it ogres ur smell.
it seems to question me,
whence wilt thou be back.

i stand in this desert, alone,
come forth and take me away.
away to the lands of mighty love,
where only love would be resident.

this heart is an ocean of love,
take thy part away.
let the pain vanish in thin air,
and thus make our life's preapared.

see this recital of emotions,
has wandered to wreckage.
it started with magnificiance,
and is lost to trance.

it has meandered from top to bottom,
personifying the mountains and lowly lands.
trance i say, as it means absurd now,
but speaks in terms of love still.

this story would reiterate,
all my ages along.
maybe thou shall fell the exuberance, i
n this birth or thy next.

ending this feels so rotten,
feelings betray me to do so.
but absurdly i end this recital here,
signifying the story which broke apart. (KELLY)

B U S Y

totally got no time blogging for yesterday bcos 1 of my bestfriend going perth whereby i supposing follow him the same day n same flight!! i decided not to go, the reason is..i think u should know better than me rite..wat my main purpose for it!! haihz lost 1 bestfriend already, now go college not meaningful as last time, if got him then at least got sum1 really can talk wit n yumcha-ing even clubbing!! our friendship have ben seperated liddat..need to wait for couple of month, also a good thingy lah..my phone now can be more silent witout him..nobody like him so crazy called ppl midnight tea time!! really miss those kinda of day!! hope he can do well in perth..good luck and all the best my dear fren, see u soon!! next round v will b in the same flight n same day..haha!! hope u can adopt to the living style there, from wat i know now is winter..jus enjoy ur life lah!! such a silly thingy v did yesterday hope u can keep it as our last memorable for future..keke :D Sorry kelly for yesterday cause i got no time to get myself online for our blogging here!! wat to do my bestfriend leaving us so must company him whole night n day add on KLIA, sleepless for yesterday nearly met an accident while i'm driving back home tis morning, luckily i can get myself safety back home if not i couldn't update our blog today!! i did call u jus now, n u didn't answering well u msg back, at dat time i took my shower i couldn't get myself to call u back on time!! after i done wit my shower i did call u, but u didn;t pick up too!! haihz!!ok la, gtg stop here need to recharge myself not enough sleep and sleepy!! take care, luv u

unexpected msg

just recovered from sick!! the medicine makes me felt sleepy..when the time i was on bed my phone ringing for incoming msg, so i go and read the msg, nevertheless u will send me msg, nvr even expected at all! she asked me weather i got take captone for next sem!! haha..i do! pity she bcos captone class is full cause the lecturer are 1 of the part time lecturer, only will be conducted consultation twice a week!! 1 lecturer and 1 tutorial every week, nothing more than dat!! hehe..too bad for her bcos late to signing up for enrollment!! i think she is also try to wait for her result to make any judgement before get herself trouble by withdraw and re-enrol!! time is real short, she got 2 more sem in metro included summer!! i left out from her is 1 sem diff which mean i total got 3 more sem to go!! i dun care wateva is it.. these is no seperation between us!! after dat i was busy-ing wit my other stuff too!! at night time i'd msg her to go yumcha wit me!! then she asked wer to yumcha!! i replied yumcha lor, the next msg she said want to go sleep, wth..haihs luckily i didn't go yumcha wit u!! i need to settle down my stuff wit my daddy also!! i told him di tml i'm not goin to fly go perth!! i straight away kena screw up kao kao!! i noe is too late for my decision bcos of tis i kena screwed!! haha..my di ask me wat happened!! u noe wat? i said i met a girl which is my future!! she's kelly!! omg..y i so daring at tis moment, i shouldn't tell them the truth!! wat to do, love u must really take out the risk no matter wat!! hehe, i think i should stop here, cos kena screwed jus now, better take a nap to isolate myself 1st!

S I C K

fall in sick, planning to her..but my throat was badly infected wit virus!! so i makes my mind not to call her at tis time!! i doesn't call her doesn't mean i din miss u at all, i do miss u!! i'm in sick, i didn't got enough sleep i still updating our blog here instead of doing nothing n wasting my time, i should take more rest rather blogging.. seriously i can't bcos my snow is on u!! like ice on u and good explaination is these is a mountain there waiting for u to calm up due to my sick, i must fast fast recover but i lazy go see doctor n i dislike to eat those medicine cos it really yucky taste, i try take a dos of cough syrup whereby my house got keep stock for dat, for emergency use and to take care of other family member, the syrup causes me sleepy, the things is i damm semangat to blogging here maybe addicted to our blog..hehe!!:D i don feel my sick were very serious eventually it is serious till know my voice like hell!! i think i should go see doctor instead of suffering!! then hor at tis time i looked at my phone, shit 32 missed call and 5messages!! wth is goin on, so i decided to read the msg before call those fren who were calling me!! i read all 5 messages, my fren asked me to return call to them!! another msg is they called me to go movie n they bought my ticket!! ohhh my goodness, i'd promised them to watch movie wit them today, but i fall in sleep tis whole evening!! another call ringing now, i picked up..my fren (shuyee) 1 of my bf among all, she is my close n close bf..anything can share together..by listening my voice, she asked me wat happened to me!! i can't even give response to her, she shouted at me!! dan r u ok? she really scared now!! i decided not to talk to her n msg her!! she replied me will be reaching my house in 15mins time for bring me to see doc..then i replied her, i'm not free cos blogging here no time to enetertain her at all!! her reply to me is treating me as ur bf, then in the msg i replied r u threatening me!!omg y i say so in the msg, gosh my sick is very serious get me in brain distornance..she replied me fine!! i dun want cares u anymore, after 10mins my door bell ring..i go opened the door for her, she said i tot u not treated me as ur fren anymore!! i tell her pls me finish my blog 1st then only v talk!! she is staring at me, while sit on my bed!! she was very scary, i better stop blogging listen up to her n go see doc.. will continue whn am back!! I MISS U KELLY

HAPPY

well, today's i'm super duper happy cos can listen up her voice when i called her!!the conversation not dat long but enough for me, i didn't expect much jus by listen her voice more than enough..i couldn't spend more time to chit chat wit her, i need to settle down my enrollment subject wit my other friends, it is important bcos v must be very smart to choose the right group of fren who is really study type to ensure them coperative or giving sum secure neither protection dat when u seek for group member by doing assignment!! tis brounches of fren is really hardworking and very easy to get wit knew them damm well and their chracteristic of personality, all is my previous group member of sumother subject.. they is nice, helpful and knowlegable when right time is doing right things on research for sources, and i dun need to worry them, whereas their doing the right way of wat is needed and requirement for the assignment!! not doing rubbish, b4 tis when i started my 1st sem in metro.. i was damm regreted to joined wit 1 indian bitchy girl and 1 more fella chindian, they are not doing anything, end up they said they will do so i putting my trust to them!! all the while i need to chase them up ask for every single part they doing..they didn;t even put any effort on dat particular assignment!! at least do sumthing relevant so i can easy to help them to correct the mistakes!! nvm, then next day is our group presentation, i need to rush for the whole ppt..skip 1 tutorial n spent whole day whole night do the ppt for them cos the report can submit later!! i finished the ppt called them, i sent it to them..tell them wat they should present n which part!! i covered whole body of contain both of them jus covered intro n conclusion!!my life is hell, cos next day is my another presentation..i haven';t get myself prepare!!god can u guide me sum fastest way can fly..after everything!! turn for submission of report another hell, report i do myself..unfortunately the assignment does not have tis peer evaluation if not i beg both of u, die on my hand!!i promised myself i won;t have tis repeating mistakes n must be very choosy for group edi in future!!jus forget about the past the important is future, look forward!! enrollment settled,now am thinking ur voice against while drinking session (yum-cha-ing), then i think is worth it..i do everything for u!! lastly i love u kelly maybe u think i might be got psychology problem in my mentality..so short period can put so much hope on u by loving, missing n caring u.. i can tell i'm not!! i really do

Results is Released!!

supposingly i should be happy and glad bcos my result is released today, yet I pass ALL wit flying colors..eventually i was seated here wit sadness and blogging..cos i couldn't get to call her and ask for her results, see weather i got the chances sharing wit her result and mine together!!! of cos everyone sure want to share good things and good news wit ur loved one..too bad her phone was off at tis time!!very moody right now, dun wish to continue to blogging her!...i'd rather to hide myself and my snow sumwhere else!wish her result not as bad la, hope everything is fine, pray hard to god to bless her now!!

"back off"

The "back Off" from you hurts me alots.
i shudnt felt that, isnt it?
but hell yes, my heart dropped at that moment.
anyway, im to be blamed , coz i was so true yet i got tis kinda of returned ( just like the lyrics in she's gone)=)

Drink, Drank, Drunk!!!!!!!!!!will it help me?? i rather to get myself to be drunk than thinking of u every moment..i dun dare to call u anymore or msg..i dun want to do so much of thingy for disturbing at the meantime!! i'm back off till crazy now..can someone awake me b4 things happen..pls survive me..i want kill myself edi d..i dunno wat i'm gonna to do on me!!><

i am not feeling well today.. physically and mentally..

why...


i am just feeling down and no mood..
this feeling is exactly the same like when i was in KDU College..is she so important to me.
it came back..it is not a bad thing. but it just promotes negative thinking..
makes me thinking of negative site of everything.. and no longer optimistic..
i once had this kind of feeling..where i wanted to isolate mysef and didnt feel like talking to anyone.. didnt want to socialise with others.. moody.. and..there was no LoVe in me..
there was no Feeling in me..and there was no emotional either..
ppl kept giving me love but i didnt seem to appreciate them.. i admit..i wasnt a good boy.. but i was absolutely a typical descent guy in everyone's eyes.. to me..
i think i was a faker.. sorry..i felt so guilty now.. so sorry......

pain!!

supposingly yesterday v already sat to go santuacy end up she didn;'t reply my msg on time and i'd call her but no response from her phone meant she not picking the call!! yet she told me, she just woke up around 11 something!! after dat i have the voice conversation wit her on phone v chatted about SPA about half an hour liddat out of sudden she say she want go take shower, actually for the smart ppl like me will suspect sumthing, cos too rush suddenly she say want to take shower, u think u will believe anot, sure "NO" rite!! i might think the negative view of point, it is someone calling her??? she did promised me will call me back after her shower!! such crappy cos she didn't call her back!! i was very dissappointed wit her again n against!! my heart was so painful, i push all my date all got to do wit her n wait till mid of the night@!!nvm la, i think i should be more patient instead of too care about her!! cos v all still haven't got any commitment yet for wat matured thinking of me!! but is pain too!!haha..when u think back, where to find the "soh lo" like me!! about12.30 my friends called me where i am now? i said at home!! they jet me go hartmas for drink!! end up i also followed them to hartamas go to tis place called 'blackhole' the place was very classy n alot chun chick chill there!! then v get a seat for 12 pax cos need to wait for another 2 couple as well..8 of us seated in the font table wit whole brunch of chun chick, my fren was making a move getting to know them n go for intro among all of us!! i didn't have much reaction at there cos i was think of (kelly) dat time n waiting for her call!! such dissapointed again, haihs i try to makes myself to get drunk n crazy!!all of my fren asked me wat wrong wit u tonite? yet i dun bother them at all by saying i want go back edi d!! i reach home about 4 plus in the morning!! i can't sleep at all!! my heart refused to even more pain now!! so i asked myself not to think of her anymore!! but i can;t!! weaknesses of me!! received a call from my fren angelyn, she said dan i damm down right now, can u company me go for a drink!!then my response to her is i too tired lazy to go out from hse!!lazyness will cause ppl in trouble, she have to come all the way in tropicana n fetch me!! after awhile she reached outside of my hse, then i go yumcha wit her until 6 plus!! she cried nonstop..omg i also have my own problem, so v sama same cry!! haha, luckily i still strong still can gave some advice for her, she's now ok edi!! my turn she asked me wat happened!! my brain-jamming!! i didn;t tell her anything at all!! wat my response is send me back home!! haha..then i fall in sleep in her car!! she wake me up then i when in my hse took shower n have the well sleep not to think anymore!!

careless mistakes

wat is on her mind now? i really want to know, wheather see trying to escape from me althose she scared from me!! can anyone tell me, i'm lost now..pls help me, survive me, i need ur help!! i really don mean to scare u at the 1st place, i really want you know wat i felt in my heart by telling truth, being as true i think is no harmful, but it might scare her, i guess abit scary lah when think back last nite, i noe i shouldn't but the situation forced to be!! wateva is it, i don mind to apologize to u by saying sorry!! i'm sorry (kelly)..i beg i won't repeating the same mistakes again!! i've regret when i try to call u, cos u didn;t pick my call, i noe something goes wrongly!!pls accept my apologize!! "I"M SORRY KELLY"...i know is too fast to tell u truth i should spend more time in blogging here without action!! maybe my action is too stingy all for my own good never even care of u at all!! I scared i got no time to tell the truth, i scared i will regret later on, i can't lie to myself cos i'm not liar!!hehe..hope u can be more understanding in my situation!! being as lover, it hard to interpret or decribes how the love is being in my heart!! due to my careless mistakes

Too much love will kill you...

Mating butterflies .....The average lifespan for an adult butterfly is 20 to 40 days. Some species live no longer than three or four days; others may live up to six months.... what a life !!


Too much love will kill you
It'll make your life a lie
Yes, too much love will kill you
And you won't understand why
You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul
But here it comes again
Too much love will kill you
In the end...

Too much love will kill you...

All of Me (Louis Armstrong)

You took my kisses and all my love
You taught me how to care
Am I to be just remnant of a one side love affair

All you took I gladly gave
There is nothing left for me to save

All of me
Why not take all of me
Can't you seeI'm no good without you
Take my lipsI want to lose them
Take my arms
I'll never use them
Your goodbye left me with eyes that cry
How can I go on dear without youY
ou took the part that once was my heart
So why not take all of me

I WILL BE BACK (PERTH)

Today's after i met u n tell u my feeling to you!! i have decided not to go perth!! such stupidity and waste rite!! but i don seemed these is waste bcos i want to be wit the person dat i really LOVE whenever or wherever i goes!! I delayed the flight all bcos of u!!haha bcos of u (i think of kelly clarkson) bcos i haven;t got the chance to meet up wit u since hols! so i postponed to perth to 14th of july!! i was screwed up by my parents, hehe!! i didn't tell u tis nor mentioned to u i been scolded by them!! i know the second person dat gonna screw me is u!! i better not to tell, the best way is blogging here!!add on my daddy admitted into hospital causing by me delayed the flight!!!i can't do anything much bcos of u!! i hope i can meet up wit u have a nice talk from my heart!! yea,,i got the chance just now!!! I was every sadness cos my daddy admitted into hospital causing by me!! i'm really 'bai ka chai' haha!! i keep on telling myself kelly u're worth it for wat i do!! i'm not lying to u!! u really can check wit the hosp the record of my daddy!! maybe u will say i makes up a story telling to convience u or add mark in my probation!! i'm sorry i won;t do dat!! it is true!! I will be back to perth cos i deffered to february later on, i've tink kinda of changes all bcos of u, now u should noe how important is u to me, therefore u must be confident to me!! give me a trust

Wat is my mind (SINGAPORE)!!

I have stop blogging about 2 week from the day i left to singapore cos my snow was in singapore!!!!!!!!eventually i'm in kl!! I was looking on my phonebook into searching for you (KELLY NG) i keep on asking myself..should i call o shouldn;t i call or call later when i reach there!!myself can;t lets go anything..just go ahead called u in you didn;t pick up the call...I was worried about u the whole night, i can;t sleep well on dat night cos i couldn;t reach u yet!! all the negative sigh came out from my mind of thinking of u!!wat happened!! are she been kidnapped by someone!! I grant my life to exchange you back!! worry n worry!! do u remember my num althose u can always seek help from me...am willing to raise my hand for u!! without you to pay me back in sense of money or body!! I was so scared dat night!! the next day u msg me n told me you're in singapore!! o..no.. god bless u!! i have been moody, emo n stingy by using my fren as weapon o thingy can fired them from cooling down my pressure!!!haha..i took a nap for 2 hr n i woke up!! now my heart too cold down from busting!! the first things i do is asking myself again, r u so important in my life!! I straight away gave response YES, I DO!! these is no such girl is important than u (KELLY) even my ex;gf!! no 1 can reprensentative u from my heart till the late of my ex;gf !! abit unfair to her rite!!wat to do changes is just apart of our experiences life in past only i will be success in life and stability experience it!!!!!!!!!so u're v v v v very important than myself!! sometimes i don care or bother myself much until i met u!! I noe i have found the right person of me ( is u) nothing much i can do now, just waiting for ur call o sms!! i noe u won;t give me a call directly definately u will msg me dunno when!! i tell my self... I WAITING FOR U!!!!!!!! I hope can give u all the best things in my life to fulfillment ur needs!! I know i can promise u right now for time being but in future wateva u want i can fully support o give u the best things even all my life wat i can support!!!! I when to safari drank wit my dude, trying to sharing our love life, i hope i can gain more knowledgeable from them, cos i have been damm long in MY SINGLE LIFE!! i dunno how to get start my engine of body to make a movement from u!! i need sum superior advice n guidance to right stage in relationship. alot of thingy v shared got happiness and sadness in their love life!! i strong agree to them, but they all older than me should be more truly experienced in love!! now my mentality and morality can be say more intelligient to use!!!haha. yet now i was thinking for to convience by giving me chance!! i really stone here!! my dude or my 'chau tut' buddy was asking me..are you alright!! I say NO!! maybe i too strong feeling wit u in coll nor same goal as in SINGAPORE!!!

My feeling right now!!

after i have seem and meet her up, telling the truth apart of my heart, i felt myself now being as settle down rather than keep it on much heart even suffering!! I can tell you that my feeling right now even strong than before i seen due to the minutes and the seconds i hugging i was so touch in my heart. I really don expected much that you're gave me a hug at first sigh, maybe u might be shy. you're really shy..very weird in my mind cos you are not simple girl who does give ppl hug!! from tis i start u gain trust from u, cos u won;t simply giving to unknown ppl in future nor u keep telling me!!! OPEN!! wat is meant by OPEN!! open minded girl la duh!!! hehe, i was too happiest in my heart i can take u as grant and i won;t suspect any fishy o u will did something wrongly in way!! I hope i can hug from now until it may last as long, longer n longest from the starting point!! I truly in my heart by saying i won't dissappointed you. I will be forever and ever loving, caring, sharing, holding and falling wit u ever and ever. I know i can't simply by saying I LOVE YOU tis is quite responsible words...its not by saying the words to the girl exspecially u LOVE HER bcos girl will always take it as serious therefore cannot dissappointed hurting her or given hope to her nor refuse the words as u being told her. being as guy must really responsibility to wat he already say at first only u will be successful in love. I noe is not easy to convience girl to have commitment wit them cos it takes sometimes, yet i kept asking her for the chances, hence i must really give her time for consideration. hopefully in tis 3mths as probation i won't dissappointed her by doing wat i should and shouldn't. I also must understanding the consequences that I can't forcing her to love or giving me some hope, but she couldn't refuse from giving ppl to loved her. Now i'm seating rite in font of my notebook here clock's 4.20 morning, I still think about u nonstop even planning for our future!!u might think that i abit 'siao' or 'chau-tut' here, maybe i kinda of guy who is don break the rules!! i will be more faithful wit u n even loyal...at last (KELLY I REALLY LOVE U) am not kidding!!the truth n forever n ever!!