"back off"

The "back Off" from you hurts me alots.
i shudnt felt that, isnt it?
but hell yes, my heart dropped at that moment.
anyway, im to be blamed , coz i was so true yet i got tis kinda of returned ( just like the lyrics in she's gone)=)

Drink, Drank, Drunk!!!!!!!!!!will it help me?? i rather to get myself to be drunk than thinking of u every moment..i dun dare to call u anymore or msg..i dun want to do so much of thingy for disturbing at the meantime!! i'm back off till crazy now..can someone awake me b4 things happen..pls survive me..i want kill myself edi d..i dunno wat i'm gonna to do on me!!><

i am not feeling well today.. physically and mentally..

why...


i am just feeling down and no mood..
this feeling is exactly the same like when i was in KDU College..is she so important to me.
it came back..it is not a bad thing. but it just promotes negative thinking..
makes me thinking of negative site of everything.. and no longer optimistic..
i once had this kind of feeling..where i wanted to isolate mysef and didnt feel like talking to anyone.. didnt want to socialise with others.. moody.. and..there was no LoVe in me..
there was no Feeling in me..and there was no emotional either..
ppl kept giving me love but i didnt seem to appreciate them.. i admit..i wasnt a good boy.. but i was absolutely a typical descent guy in everyone's eyes.. to me..
i think i was a faker.. sorry..i felt so guilty now.. so sorry......