Missing u....(KELLY)

All my days, n all my nights,
are lonely without u my heart.
only thou art can come and soothe,
this always so throbbing and cribbing article..

darkness doesn seem to subside,
if only u could be by my side.
wat falacies and betrayals, look in my eyes,
my love for u will shove them aside.

itz too long a wait,
my eyes are too tired now,
only if u could give them rest,
come and kiss away the pain.

this restless soul, looks for u,
hither, then thither.oh!
do not punish me so.
look a poet u have created besides.

countless places have i wandered,
friends n foe, all seem alike.
the world doth seek vengenance,
n i simply look, standing aside.

the feel is blue, though not new,
whence did i care for someone so.
let our song recieve its reward, this solitary soul,
at thy mercy.

scorned i have been, dejected more so.
yet hope doth give me false solace.
our love rises over the complications that shows,
upon this earth, as it revolutes.

must i know wat comes that shows us as aparts,
the solution lies in this heart, herein.
countless more pleading wilt i do,
thyself is all that i have ever to ask.

the birds are not singing,
they hide in their nests.
the flowers have stooped blooming,
the fragrance all lost.

nature doth pleads u,
it ogres ur smell.
it seems to question me,
whence wilt thou be back.

i stand in this desert, alone,
come forth and take me away.
away to the lands of mighty love,
where only love would be resident.

this heart is an ocean of love,
take thy part away.
let the pain vanish in thin air,
and thus make our life's preapared.

see this recital of emotions,
has wandered to wreckage.
it started with magnificiance,
and is lost to trance.

it has meandered from top to bottom,
personifying the mountains and lowly lands.
trance i say, as it means absurd now,
but speaks in terms of love still.

this story would reiterate,
all my ages along.
maybe thou shall fell the exuberance, i
n this birth or thy next.

ending this feels so rotten,
feelings betray me to do so.
but absurdly i end this recital here,
signifying the story which broke apart. (KELLY)

B U S Y

totally got no time blogging for yesterday bcos 1 of my bestfriend going perth whereby i supposing follow him the same day n same flight!! i decided not to go, the reason is..i think u should know better than me rite..wat my main purpose for it!! haihz lost 1 bestfriend already, now go college not meaningful as last time, if got him then at least got sum1 really can talk wit n yumcha-ing even clubbing!! our friendship have ben seperated liddat..need to wait for couple of month, also a good thingy lah..my phone now can be more silent witout him..nobody like him so crazy called ppl midnight tea time!! really miss those kinda of day!! hope he can do well in perth..good luck and all the best my dear fren, see u soon!! next round v will b in the same flight n same day..haha!! hope u can adopt to the living style there, from wat i know now is winter..jus enjoy ur life lah!! such a silly thingy v did yesterday hope u can keep it as our last memorable for future..keke :D Sorry kelly for yesterday cause i got no time to get myself online for our blogging here!! wat to do my bestfriend leaving us so must company him whole night n day add on KLIA, sleepless for yesterday nearly met an accident while i'm driving back home tis morning, luckily i can get myself safety back home if not i couldn't update our blog today!! i did call u jus now, n u didn't answering well u msg back, at dat time i took my shower i couldn't get myself to call u back on time!! after i done wit my shower i did call u, but u didn;t pick up too!! haihz!!ok la, gtg stop here need to recharge myself not enough sleep and sleepy!! take care, luv u

unexpected msg

just recovered from sick!! the medicine makes me felt sleepy..when the time i was on bed my phone ringing for incoming msg, so i go and read the msg, nevertheless u will send me msg, nvr even expected at all! she asked me weather i got take captone for next sem!! haha..i do! pity she bcos captone class is full cause the lecturer are 1 of the part time lecturer, only will be conducted consultation twice a week!! 1 lecturer and 1 tutorial every week, nothing more than dat!! hehe..too bad for her bcos late to signing up for enrollment!! i think she is also try to wait for her result to make any judgement before get herself trouble by withdraw and re-enrol!! time is real short, she got 2 more sem in metro included summer!! i left out from her is 1 sem diff which mean i total got 3 more sem to go!! i dun care wateva is it.. these is no seperation between us!! after dat i was busy-ing wit my other stuff too!! at night time i'd msg her to go yumcha wit me!! then she asked wer to yumcha!! i replied yumcha lor, the next msg she said want to go sleep, wth..haihs luckily i didn't go yumcha wit u!! i need to settle down my stuff wit my daddy also!! i told him di tml i'm not goin to fly go perth!! i straight away kena screw up kao kao!! i noe is too late for my decision bcos of tis i kena screwed!! haha..my di ask me wat happened!! u noe wat? i said i met a girl which is my future!! she's kelly!! omg..y i so daring at tis moment, i shouldn't tell them the truth!! wat to do, love u must really take out the risk no matter wat!! hehe, i think i should stop here, cos kena screwed jus now, better take a nap to isolate myself 1st!

S I C K

fall in sick, planning to her..but my throat was badly infected wit virus!! so i makes my mind not to call her at tis time!! i doesn't call her doesn't mean i din miss u at all, i do miss u!! i'm in sick, i didn't got enough sleep i still updating our blog here instead of doing nothing n wasting my time, i should take more rest rather blogging.. seriously i can't bcos my snow is on u!! like ice on u and good explaination is these is a mountain there waiting for u to calm up due to my sick, i must fast fast recover but i lazy go see doctor n i dislike to eat those medicine cos it really yucky taste, i try take a dos of cough syrup whereby my house got keep stock for dat, for emergency use and to take care of other family member, the syrup causes me sleepy, the things is i damm semangat to blogging here maybe addicted to our blog..hehe!!:D i don feel my sick were very serious eventually it is serious till know my voice like hell!! i think i should go see doctor instead of suffering!! then hor at tis time i looked at my phone, shit 32 missed call and 5messages!! wth is goin on, so i decided to read the msg before call those fren who were calling me!! i read all 5 messages, my fren asked me to return call to them!! another msg is they called me to go movie n they bought my ticket!! ohhh my goodness, i'd promised them to watch movie wit them today, but i fall in sleep tis whole evening!! another call ringing now, i picked up..my fren (shuyee) 1 of my bf among all, she is my close n close bf..anything can share together..by listening my voice, she asked me wat happened to me!! i can't even give response to her, she shouted at me!! dan r u ok? she really scared now!! i decided not to talk to her n msg her!! she replied me will be reaching my house in 15mins time for bring me to see doc..then i replied her, i'm not free cos blogging here no time to enetertain her at all!! her reply to me is treating me as ur bf, then in the msg i replied r u threatening me!!omg y i say so in the msg, gosh my sick is very serious get me in brain distornance..she replied me fine!! i dun want cares u anymore, after 10mins my door bell ring..i go opened the door for her, she said i tot u not treated me as ur fren anymore!! i tell her pls me finish my blog 1st then only v talk!! she is staring at me, while sit on my bed!! she was very scary, i better stop blogging listen up to her n go see doc.. will continue whn am back!! I MISS U KELLY

HAPPY

well, today's i'm super duper happy cos can listen up her voice when i called her!!the conversation not dat long but enough for me, i didn't expect much jus by listen her voice more than enough..i couldn't spend more time to chit chat wit her, i need to settle down my enrollment subject wit my other friends, it is important bcos v must be very smart to choose the right group of fren who is really study type to ensure them coperative or giving sum secure neither protection dat when u seek for group member by doing assignment!! tis brounches of fren is really hardworking and very easy to get wit knew them damm well and their chracteristic of personality, all is my previous group member of sumother subject.. they is nice, helpful and knowlegable when right time is doing right things on research for sources, and i dun need to worry them, whereas their doing the right way of wat is needed and requirement for the assignment!! not doing rubbish, b4 tis when i started my 1st sem in metro.. i was damm regreted to joined wit 1 indian bitchy girl and 1 more fella chindian, they are not doing anything, end up they said they will do so i putting my trust to them!! all the while i need to chase them up ask for every single part they doing..they didn;t even put any effort on dat particular assignment!! at least do sumthing relevant so i can easy to help them to correct the mistakes!! nvm, then next day is our group presentation, i need to rush for the whole ppt..skip 1 tutorial n spent whole day whole night do the ppt for them cos the report can submit later!! i finished the ppt called them, i sent it to them..tell them wat they should present n which part!! i covered whole body of contain both of them jus covered intro n conclusion!!my life is hell, cos next day is my another presentation..i haven';t get myself prepare!!god can u guide me sum fastest way can fly..after everything!! turn for submission of report another hell, report i do myself..unfortunately the assignment does not have tis peer evaluation if not i beg both of u, die on my hand!!i promised myself i won;t have tis repeating mistakes n must be very choosy for group edi in future!!jus forget about the past the important is future, look forward!! enrollment settled,now am thinking ur voice against while drinking session (yum-cha-ing), then i think is worth it..i do everything for u!! lastly i love u kelly maybe u think i might be got psychology problem in my mentality..so short period can put so much hope on u by loving, missing n caring u.. i can tell i'm not!! i really do

Results is Released!!

supposingly i should be happy and glad bcos my result is released today, yet I pass ALL wit flying colors..eventually i was seated here wit sadness and blogging..cos i couldn't get to call her and ask for her results, see weather i got the chances sharing wit her result and mine together!!! of cos everyone sure want to share good things and good news wit ur loved one..too bad her phone was off at tis time!!very moody right now, dun wish to continue to blogging her!...i'd rather to hide myself and my snow sumwhere else!wish her result not as bad la, hope everything is fine, pray hard to god to bless her now!!

"back off"

The "back Off" from you hurts me alots.
i shudnt felt that, isnt it?
but hell yes, my heart dropped at that moment.
anyway, im to be blamed , coz i was so true yet i got tis kinda of returned ( just like the lyrics in she's gone)=)

Drink, Drank, Drunk!!!!!!!!!!will it help me?? i rather to get myself to be drunk than thinking of u every moment..i dun dare to call u anymore or msg..i dun want to do so much of thingy for disturbing at the meantime!! i'm back off till crazy now..can someone awake me b4 things happen..pls survive me..i want kill myself edi d..i dunno wat i'm gonna to do on me!!><