unexpected msg

just recovered from sick!! the medicine makes me felt sleepy..when the time i was on bed my phone ringing for incoming msg, so i go and read the msg, nevertheless u will send me msg, nvr even expected at all! she asked me weather i got take captone for next sem!! haha..i do! pity she bcos captone class is full cause the lecturer are 1 of the part time lecturer, only will be conducted consultation twice a week!! 1 lecturer and 1 tutorial every week, nothing more than dat!! hehe..too bad for her bcos late to signing up for enrollment!! i think she is also try to wait for her result to make any judgement before get herself trouble by withdraw and re-enrol!! time is real short, she got 2 more sem in metro included summer!! i left out from her is 1 sem diff which mean i total got 3 more sem to go!! i dun care wateva is it.. these is no seperation between us!! after dat i was busy-ing wit my other stuff too!! at night time i'd msg her to go yumcha wit me!! then she asked wer to yumcha!! i replied yumcha lor, the next msg she said want to go sleep, wth..haihs luckily i didn't go yumcha wit u!! i need to settle down my stuff wit my daddy also!! i told him di tml i'm not goin to fly go perth!! i straight away kena screw up kao kao!! i noe is too late for my decision bcos of tis i kena screwed!! haha..my di ask me wat happened!! u noe wat? i said i met a girl which is my future!! she's kelly!! omg..y i so daring at tis moment, i shouldn't tell them the truth!! wat to do, love u must really take out the risk no matter wat!! hehe, i think i should stop here, cos kena screwed jus now, better take a nap to isolate myself 1st!

S I C K

fall in sick, planning to her..but my throat was badly infected wit virus!! so i makes my mind not to call her at tis time!! i doesn't call her doesn't mean i din miss u at all, i do miss u!! i'm in sick, i didn't got enough sleep i still updating our blog here instead of doing nothing n wasting my time, i should take more rest rather blogging.. seriously i can't bcos my snow is on u!! like ice on u and good explaination is these is a mountain there waiting for u to calm up due to my sick, i must fast fast recover but i lazy go see doctor n i dislike to eat those medicine cos it really yucky taste, i try take a dos of cough syrup whereby my house got keep stock for dat, for emergency use and to take care of other family member, the syrup causes me sleepy, the things is i damm semangat to blogging here maybe addicted to our blog..hehe!!:D i don feel my sick were very serious eventually it is serious till know my voice like hell!! i think i should go see doctor instead of suffering!! then hor at tis time i looked at my phone, shit 32 missed call and 5messages!! wth is goin on, so i decided to read the msg before call those fren who were calling me!! i read all 5 messages, my fren asked me to return call to them!! another msg is they called me to go movie n they bought my ticket!! ohhh my goodness, i'd promised them to watch movie wit them today, but i fall in sleep tis whole evening!! another call ringing now, i picked up..my fren (shuyee) 1 of my bf among all, she is my close n close bf..anything can share together..by listening my voice, she asked me wat happened to me!! i can't even give response to her, she shouted at me!! dan r u ok? she really scared now!! i decided not to talk to her n msg her!! she replied me will be reaching my house in 15mins time for bring me to see doc..then i replied her, i'm not free cos blogging here no time to enetertain her at all!! her reply to me is treating me as ur bf, then in the msg i replied r u threatening me!!omg y i say so in the msg, gosh my sick is very serious get me in brain distornance..she replied me fine!! i dun want cares u anymore, after 10mins my door bell ring..i go opened the door for her, she said i tot u not treated me as ur fren anymore!! i tell her pls me finish my blog 1st then only v talk!! she is staring at me, while sit on my bed!! she was very scary, i better stop blogging listen up to her n go see doc.. will continue whn am back!! I MISS U KELLY

HAPPY

well, today's i'm super duper happy cos can listen up her voice when i called her!!the conversation not dat long but enough for me, i didn't expect much jus by listen her voice more than enough..i couldn't spend more time to chit chat wit her, i need to settle down my enrollment subject wit my other friends, it is important bcos v must be very smart to choose the right group of fren who is really study type to ensure them coperative or giving sum secure neither protection dat when u seek for group member by doing assignment!! tis brounches of fren is really hardworking and very easy to get wit knew them damm well and their chracteristic of personality, all is my previous group member of sumother subject.. they is nice, helpful and knowlegable when right time is doing right things on research for sources, and i dun need to worry them, whereas their doing the right way of wat is needed and requirement for the assignment!! not doing rubbish, b4 tis when i started my 1st sem in metro.. i was damm regreted to joined wit 1 indian bitchy girl and 1 more fella chindian, they are not doing anything, end up they said they will do so i putting my trust to them!! all the while i need to chase them up ask for every single part they doing..they didn;t even put any effort on dat particular assignment!! at least do sumthing relevant so i can easy to help them to correct the mistakes!! nvm, then next day is our group presentation, i need to rush for the whole ppt..skip 1 tutorial n spent whole day whole night do the ppt for them cos the report can submit later!! i finished the ppt called them, i sent it to them..tell them wat they should present n which part!! i covered whole body of contain both of them jus covered intro n conclusion!!my life is hell, cos next day is my another presentation..i haven';t get myself prepare!!god can u guide me sum fastest way can fly..after everything!! turn for submission of report another hell, report i do myself..unfortunately the assignment does not have tis peer evaluation if not i beg both of u, die on my hand!!i promised myself i won;t have tis repeating mistakes n must be very choosy for group edi in future!!jus forget about the past the important is future, look forward!! enrollment settled,now am thinking ur voice against while drinking session (yum-cha-ing), then i think is worth it..i do everything for u!! lastly i love u kelly maybe u think i might be got psychology problem in my mentality..so short period can put so much hope on u by loving, missing n caring u.. i can tell i'm not!! i really do

Results is Released!!

supposingly i should be happy and glad bcos my result is released today, yet I pass ALL wit flying colors..eventually i was seated here wit sadness and blogging..cos i couldn't get to call her and ask for her results, see weather i got the chances sharing wit her result and mine together!!! of cos everyone sure want to share good things and good news wit ur loved one..too bad her phone was off at tis time!!very moody right now, dun wish to continue to blogging her!...i'd rather to hide myself and my snow sumwhere else!wish her result not as bad la, hope everything is fine, pray hard to god to bless her now!!

"back off"

The "back Off" from you hurts me alots.
i shudnt felt that, isnt it?
but hell yes, my heart dropped at that moment.
anyway, im to be blamed , coz i was so true yet i got tis kinda of returned ( just like the lyrics in she's gone)=)

Drink, Drank, Drunk!!!!!!!!!!will it help me?? i rather to get myself to be drunk than thinking of u every moment..i dun dare to call u anymore or msg..i dun want to do so much of thingy for disturbing at the meantime!! i'm back off till crazy now..can someone awake me b4 things happen..pls survive me..i want kill myself edi d..i dunno wat i'm gonna to do on me!!><

i am not feeling well today.. physically and mentally..

why...


i am just feeling down and no mood..
this feeling is exactly the same like when i was in KDU College..is she so important to me.
it came back..it is not a bad thing. but it just promotes negative thinking..
makes me thinking of negative site of everything.. and no longer optimistic..
i once had this kind of feeling..where i wanted to isolate mysef and didnt feel like talking to anyone.. didnt want to socialise with others.. moody.. and..there was no LoVe in me..
there was no Feeling in me..and there was no emotional either..
ppl kept giving me love but i didnt seem to appreciate them.. i admit..i wasnt a good boy.. but i was absolutely a typical descent guy in everyone's eyes.. to me..
i think i was a faker.. sorry..i felt so guilty now.. so sorry......

pain!!

supposingly yesterday v already sat to go santuacy end up she didn;'t reply my msg on time and i'd call her but no response from her phone meant she not picking the call!! yet she told me, she just woke up around 11 something!! after dat i have the voice conversation wit her on phone v chatted about SPA about half an hour liddat out of sudden she say she want go take shower, actually for the smart ppl like me will suspect sumthing, cos too rush suddenly she say want to take shower, u think u will believe anot, sure "NO" rite!! i might think the negative view of point, it is someone calling her??? she did promised me will call me back after her shower!! such crappy cos she didn't call her back!! i was very dissappointed wit her again n against!! my heart was so painful, i push all my date all got to do wit her n wait till mid of the night@!!nvm la, i think i should be more patient instead of too care about her!! cos v all still haven't got any commitment yet for wat matured thinking of me!! but is pain too!!haha..when u think back, where to find the "soh lo" like me!! about12.30 my friends called me where i am now? i said at home!! they jet me go hartmas for drink!! end up i also followed them to hartamas go to tis place called 'blackhole' the place was very classy n alot chun chick chill there!! then v get a seat for 12 pax cos need to wait for another 2 couple as well..8 of us seated in the font table wit whole brunch of chun chick, my fren was making a move getting to know them n go for intro among all of us!! i didn't have much reaction at there cos i was think of (kelly) dat time n waiting for her call!! such dissapointed again, haihs i try to makes myself to get drunk n crazy!!all of my fren asked me wat wrong wit u tonite? yet i dun bother them at all by saying i want go back edi d!! i reach home about 4 plus in the morning!! i can't sleep at all!! my heart refused to even more pain now!! so i asked myself not to think of her anymore!! but i can;t!! weaknesses of me!! received a call from my fren angelyn, she said dan i damm down right now, can u company me go for a drink!!then my response to her is i too tired lazy to go out from hse!!lazyness will cause ppl in trouble, she have to come all the way in tropicana n fetch me!! after awhile she reached outside of my hse, then i go yumcha wit her until 6 plus!! she cried nonstop..omg i also have my own problem, so v sama same cry!! haha, luckily i still strong still can gave some advice for her, she's now ok edi!! my turn she asked me wat happened!! my brain-jamming!! i didn;t tell her anything at all!! wat my response is send me back home!! haha..then i fall in sleep in her car!! she wake me up then i when in my hse took shower n have the well sleep not to think anymore!!